Well today is Valentine’s Day or February 14th. For most of us it is a day used to celebrate our special someone or for others it’s an excuse to pig out on chocolate lol! I wasn’t big into this holiday, Easter and Halloween were more my jam, never expected flowers or cards mushy stuff. Even when me and Joe began to date I didn’t hold my breath yet I received flowers and I began to call them my “once a year flowers”. He’s gotten them several times since then but it’s our little joke. I’ll never forget it was the year he was on the road working and I received the strangest phone call at work from a woman saying she couldn’t deliver my flowers because she couldn’t get into the apartment building. I immediately laughed and said “That’s okay if you leave them at the front I can grab them later when I get home.” I continued my day and when I arrived home I had completely forgotten about them due to work but to my surprise I opened the door and there was a beautiful flower arrangement greeting me. I immediately called him and started crying because he didn’t forget and still found a way to surprise me. The front office ladies helped to by sneaking them inside instead of leaving them downstairs!
This year Valentine’s Day holds a slightly different meaning to me so we chose not to really celebrate today. It marks the day we first found Harold. When I originally scheduled my routine colonoscopy it didn’t even occur to me it was Valentine’s Day until the week approached and by then it was too late to switch. I still received my flowers although they came a day late but they were the least of what was on our minds.
What is love? A question I asked myself many times over the years. Now at age 31 I feel like I just now am beginning to understand what love truly is. As child I was taught that Jesus loves me and that my parents love me and that was good enough for me. Yet as I got older and began to date I thought I was ready for love so I would throw the word around loosely not meaning it but the other person was saying it so I should to right? Oh what I would give to tell myself back then! I thought I had found love again at the age of 22 but that was not love and thankfully with my mothers help and patience escaped what would have been a disaster. I know that I deeply cared for this individual but I now know love is not hurting someone emotionally or physically. At age 25 I still hadn’t found “the one” and I was beginning to wondered if I would ever be in love. After several bad dates thanks to online dating I vowed to just be by myself. That’s when Joe came out of left field! I never expected this tall skinny very intelligent man to be the one who would show me what love is. I don’t quite remember who said I love you first or have any spectacular story to go with it but after many bad dates a few bad relationships and 2 midlife crisis meltdowns I finally have found love. I still don’t think I truly understand what love is but to me love is me and joe. It’s the way he tucks me in at night, the way we laugh at ridiculous cat videos and the way he holds my hand. It’s the way I know his order at every restaurant we visit and the way he fills my gas tank or washes my car endlessly to keep it clean. Love isn’t just a feeling it’s also an action. To quote one of my favorite movies “Love is like the wind, you can’t see it but you can feel it.”
On this Friday February 14th 2020 my wish for all of you is that you experience some love today. Whether it’s a hug or a kiss from your someone special husband girlfriend grandchild or child or a card or flowers. I hope everyone has a Happy Valentine’s Day!!!!